So I arrived in china all safe! Then another flight to east coast city. Am staying with a friend for a few days before heading to eagles wings.
This is what I reflected on before boarding my flight to Beijing:
It's a really weird feeling sitting here in the airport waiting for my flight to Beijing, thinking ahead about all I will experience over the next two months and knowing... Knowing my heart will once again be broken into a thousand different pieces. Knowing I will see so many things which are simply unfair yet there is nothing I can really do about it.
I feel completely overwhelmed and wonder why I am slug this to myself again. For the first time, this year I am nervous. What if I can't handle the heartbreak this year?
Then I remember that it is not ME doing this. God has called me to this work. And He will provide. He promises to go before us and prepare a way. And he promises us his peace. That is what I will count on and pray this year. I can do everything through He who gives me strength. And He can do immeasurably more than I could ever ask or imagine. In my life as well as the kids lives who I will work with.
I'm not sure if anyone could ever be 'ready' for that kind of heartbreak. But I won't be facing it alone, that is for sure.