Last few days

From Monday night:

It's a really weird feeling knowing that tomorrow is my last day with these kids. Last time to wake up to a day full of seeing them. Last time to visit the babies. Last time to visit my XiaoLin. Last time to have lunch with them. Last time to visit and help at the school. Last time to read stories and tuck them in at night.

I don't really like change all that much. It makes me sad that things won't be the same. And that definitely applies here. I know I still have some more adventures left in China but the thought of not being with them all day just makes me sad. Life just isn't the same at home. When I walk into a room at home, I don't have lots of little feet running towards me and beaming faces looking up at me. I don't go to bed at night exhausted after a long day but super excited for the next in the same way that I do here.

I am more than EVER adamant that this is where I am meant to be. Whether I end up at Eagles Wings or not I know that I must dedicate my life to working with orphans.

beautiful jianna who is waiting for a family to choose her

So for Monday I tried to pack in as much as I could. I walked the boys to school in their wheelchairs. Barry takes a little longer than the others! His arms just aren't strong enough yet! So some motivating him to keep going was needed! Then I visited the babies, followed by XiaoLin. Followed by some time at the school before lunch. Followed by rest time followed by more time at the school helping with assessing the kids levels. Followed by eating with some of the older kids and hanging out with them for a while. It was a jam packed day.

Tomorrow will be even busier I think.

My heart is so torn. I'm so not ready to leave.

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